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this post will consist of good news and bad news. ok, bad news first. i want you all to leave with a good feeling. So, i went to my internship today and it was quite a day. One of the teachers that works at the school i am interning at killed her husband, her 19 year old daughter, and then herself on monday night. It was a complete surprise and the kids and teachers and staff at the school are really having a hard time with it. it was very shocking to me. It is definitley a tragedy. the teacher was not well liked by the students and that is making it even tougher for all of them and us to work through. needless to say, today was a tough day. all the kids i saw today were still pretty shaken up or they were completely ambivalent which makes me very sad. i have always had a hard time dealing with suicide. i lost a good friend that way when i was younger. it is so hard to wrap your mind around the reasons someone would do that. then, there is always second guessing about if you had done more, maybe it would not have happened. Anyway, i know life will go on, but it is still so sad to know that something like that can happen so close to home. Anyway, it is just a reminder that we never know what others are going through. we never know what lies behind the masks that so many people wear.

ok, more bad news. it seems that there was a suicide bomber attempt at the American Embassy in Beruit. He did not succeed, but it still is not good. I hate it how so many people make so many generalizations when they hear about something like this. i am leaving in a few days to spend much time in lebanon and some of that time will be spent in beruit. I am not scared at all, but people keep asking me if i am. I guess i should be, but that is where i am from. I have never been afraid of lebanon and i dont plan on starting now. Anyway, i hope people can keep separate the actions of some crazed individuals from those of the rest of the country.

ok, on to the good news. well, this is just actually good news for michael and i and actually it is sort of bittersweet news, even for us. Well, this post is not very uplifting at all. :) the good news is michael and i get to spend all evening together tommorrow night. that is something we have not been able to do in a while now. we are going to simply fondue and then hanging out together for the rest of the evening. i anticipate many good times. it is going to be a bittersweet evening because michael leaves to visit his family on friday morning and i head out to lebanon on sunday and then we dont see each other for 3 weeks. how sad. i really am going to miss everyone here. I will be thinking about you all while i am partying it up in lebanon. :) i will definitley keep you all posted as much as i can about my trip. my cousins all have pretty decent internet access, so stay tuned. I'm out.