I'm still alive, i promise :)

well, hello everyone!! so, to fill you all in on the crazy life of nada. Where do i begin? i started my job as case manager today. i only worked 5 hours and it was basically filling out a bunch of paperwork and watching two videos, one about ethics (3 hours) and one about working with adolecsents with attachment and separation issues (as in the kids i will be working with) (1.5 hours). anyway, the video about the adolescents was very good, i learned quite a bit. the ethics video was also pretty good, but it could have definitley been condensed to about an hour instead of three. Anyway, i guess a more positive way to look at today is that i made some money, which i am really running low on, so that is a great thing. :) I am hoping to be able to sit in on a family assessment tommorrow at noon, but i am not sure since i havent been able to do my drug/TB test yet. I didnt have time to go today and you have to be able to go back in 48 hours after your TB test so they can read the results, so i have to wait till wednesday so that i can make it in on friday. Anyway, i hope they let me sit in on the assessment anyway. :)

school is still going fine. I am very, very, very ready to graduate, but hopefully i can make it till may. I am still learning quite a bit at my internship. the kids that i am working with this semester seem to be a bit tougher. most of them are severely depressed and i have already had a few suicidal kids. also, i am working with one young man who is quite racist and that has been very hard for me. It has definitley tested my skills at keeping my personal views separate from my professional views. i have to keep reminding myself that no matter how much i disagree with this kid, he is entitled to believe whatever he would like to believe. My job is to help him with his problems, not to change his views about things. anyway, need less to say, i am still learning quite a bit.

well, the superbowl was a good time. i know you all never thought you would hear me say that. But, i guess when I get to watch it laying in the arms of the man i love (that's you, michael :), it makes it all that much better. I did fall asleep during the last quarter, but what else in new right. :) also, i made my mom's famous layer dip and it was quite a hit.

this week has been quite eventful as far as what is going on in my head. :) I think i have finally decided that i am ready to face some of my deepest fears. I think i am finally tired of having old shit still affect my life, so i am going to make a change. I have a lot of wonderful people in my life right now and they are all willing to be there for me, i guess i just need to learn how to let them. :)

on another great note, jay is coming into town next weekend. I think he is staying for a few weeks, so that should be much fun. I havent seen him in a very long while. well, i have to run. I'm out!